But You Didnt Have to Cut Me Out, Make Out Like It Never Happened and That We Were Nothing.

We all have that one friend, or maybe more than one if we're that unlucky, who sooner or later becomes one of the closest people to us. But then, something unfortunate, unintentional, and extremely stupid happens that leads to that friendship meaning NOTHING.

Yeah, some of you may know what I'm talking about, but those who don't, well, you're really lucky. And always be ready. It can happen at any time, any place, or any moment.

The thing is, its happened too many times now. I don't know who to trust anymore. My best friend drowned with his girlfriend's infatuation, and after their break up, he was back to normal. Quite miserable really, until he got over her. He came running back to us then, his ACTUAL friends.

Now, hes got another girlfriend.And hes turning into the same person he was before. We try to tell him. Try to give him advice. We aren't his toys, that he'd just throw away for a girl.This is just ONE situation, and that too, quite minor.

My other friend, who I knew for 4 years, completely erased me from her life just because her boyfriend was against it. Guess those four years of friendship didn't mean shit.

So yeah, we all have those kind of friends. Friends that were never really friends. And to be honest, it hurts. It really does.

Just thought I'd share this with you all. Anyway, take care, be happy!

A True Story.

Hey everyone! Hope you've all been awesomely awesome as usual! And hello to my new followers! I know I've probably had a bad impression on all of you by being so inconsistent, but thats only because i've been studying like crazy for my final O' Levels. I just hope I get through with good grades.

Anyway, the reason why I'm especially taking time out today to blog is to update my page AND to give you guys a good post to read. Also, because of a little story my mother told me.

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In the present day, fortune-telling has become an industry. In many places, you find these weird people with long beards and eccentric clothes, uttering out crap thats basically staged, over and over again. Women with stupid magic 'balls', cards that would predict the future, etc. These are all scams to earn money. I mean, for entertainment's sake its acceptable, but being accustomed to it? I mean come on. Do you really think if these people would be able to see the future and contact the 'dead', they'd be sitting in a caravan or in a circus, taking money from people to look into their future? People can be so stupid.



I mean seriously, look at that retarded woman. Do you really think she would be able to tell you about your future? All these people do is tell you things that are very obvious and apparent, and fool you with their flattery and end up taking shit loads of money from you.

Anyway, its time for the scary side. I myself never believed in predicting the future until my mom told me a story. A story about one of our own family members, a very old one actually, who had weird visions and was said to be crazy. She was my grandmother's cousin who was orphaned at a young age. What happened was, she started living with my grandmother's family. One night, when she was around seven or eight, she went out to take some water out of the well. Somehow, she fell in. The next day, no one could find her anywhere. People looked everywhere, and my great grandfather was very worried. So my grandmother herself went to the well to get water for him, and found her cousin there, stuck inside, fainted. She quickly ran and called for help. They took her out. Since that day, she started acting very oddly. I mean, she was still normal, but sometimes she had attacks of trauma and panic, and had fits. My mom told me that something weird happened to her that night. Whenever she uttered weird things out of her mouth, people thought it was only because of the severe trauma she faced as a child.

Now, here's what the weird part is. When my mom got engaged to my dad, he went to my grandmother's house to meet the family, etc. He met my grandmother's cousin too. As soon as she saw my dad, she started crying. And everyone was shocked, they kept asking her what was wrong. All she said was 'Nahi, kuch nahi hai. Mujhe chor do.' (Nothing, nothing happened. Leave me alone) With sobs. My mom was really confused.  Soon, she told my grandmother a few days later that the man that she saw was going to be very sick, and his life would never be the same. And my grandmother told her she was crazy, and was just being absurd. Well, in a few weeks my dad had to go to Seychelles for a business trip. There, he was in a huge accident. He lost his front teeth, his knee broke, so did his femur. And this was in 1989, when artificial joints weren't there. He had 18 operations, and more than 150 stitches all over his body. Now he walks without a knee in his right foot.







No matter how hard he'd try, he could never have the same life. He was an amazing sportsman.Used to be a 100m champion, a great cricketer too. But I could never see it. I could never see him run, or sit comfortably. I guess God has His reasons for everything He has done, but I just wished I would have seen my father as he really was. Energetic, alive, vibrant. Ive seen his pictures. Whenever I wanted to go on a rollercoaster, or to play a family game, or whenever there was a Parent's race on sports day, I always saw his face. It wasn't anger or disappointment. It was was plain longing to be able to do something like that. Every man wants to be involved in sports with his son. Its every man's dream, even mine. I would love to spend quality time with my son, if I'd have one, doing sports. But I guess my dad didnt get that chance. Anyway, I just want to say that I love you dad. Regardless of whatever has happened, you are the most awesome dad anyone can ever have. And Im sorry if I was ever rude to you, or mean.

Anyway, coming back to fortune telling. She was right. He was in bed rest for 6 months. I dont know how she saw it. Maybe something hit her right there, something that made her confident that my dad's future was going to be changed.

Doesnt it make you wonder? It certainly made me wonder.

Anyway, hope you liked this post, after so long! Take care!

Fitness!

Millions of people in this world probably have this resolution for 2012; to keep fit/to become fit or fitter. Being fit is one of the very few things that are extremely essential for life. And everyone has their own way of doing it. Many people resort to the gym, people jog in the mornings, people join fitness clubs, health clubs, or even join YOGA. Believe it or not, yoga keeps you extremely fit, slim and increases your flexibility by a huge margin. Many people start various sport activities, like football, squash, tennis, or badminton. Being more fit is one of my few new year resolutions, so, I started a little thing known as Muay Thai.

I dont expect most of you to know what it is, but in common words, Its Thai Kickboxing. Yes, a martial art. I used to do Kickboxing back in Dubai from the eighth to the tenth grade, and I stopped because I was moving here. I've been out of practice for over a year, but I've finally decided to continue and pursue this passion! Not just to stay fit, but to continue the sport. I started it around a month back, yes, well before 2012, but that was just so I could get into the rhythm. From now on, its going to be a routine! Along with football, kickboxing too was a passion of mine, but I unfortunately had to stop due to the unavailability of the sport. But luckily I found myself a park here, in Karachi, where they have a gym, a running track and everything you need to work out. So, my friends and I decided to go to it every now and then to work out and train amongst ourselves with guidance from people who have experience in the sport.

Believe it or not, its an excellent way to keep fit. I've lost some weight over the past month, and can already see the difference in myself. Its quite excellent, to be honest.

Most of you may think that its a horrible sport, it involves blood, breaking each other's bones, etc etc. Well, I beg to differ. Yes, it may involve those things, but sometimes, considering where we live, we HAVE to know how to protect ourselves. The world as it seems, is not a very nice place.
Also, its not just about self-defence, its about keeping fit, and mainly for men, its a pride thing. To be tough, to be able to protect. I'm not going to be subtle about this, yes, every man wants to be able to protect, to be able to defend and to be tough. Its in our nature, its how we were created.

Besides, it gives you a great physique, and builds your core. It makes you resistant to pain and it makes you patient. Patience is something I need DESPERATELY. I am one of the most impatient individuals you will ever come across, believe me.

Also, it makes you learn cool things like this:



 

Cool, yes? Haha, I know how to do most of this. Awesome, right? Well, school re-opens tomorrow! Wish me luck! Gah, same old waking up in the morning... How sad. Anyway, see you guys later!

The First Post of 2012!

Heyyy everyone! How have all of you been? I have been drowned with exams and competitions and I have had NO time for anything else. Im finally on winter break, and got some time for sharing some of the recent things with you guys. I hope all of you understand and aren't sick of my inconsistency!

Let me use a picture to explain things more clearly:



As you can see, social life AND good grades, means NO sleep, or in other words, no time for anything else. I  currently got my grades too. And can you believe I got a ninety-nine in my chemistry mock? I could't believe it myself. Heck, I STILL cant believe it. I've never seen a 99 written on any exam of mine. It was amazing.

Anyway, leaving that aside, I remember the last thing I blogged about was the day before my MUN experience. Yes, I went to Szabist Model United Nations. I have only one word for it: EPIC. It was the social extravaganza. Seriously, the amount of friends, and the KIND of friends I made out of it, undescribe-able.

The country that my delegation was given was USA, and dont think that I'm extremely lucky to get that. USA is the WORST country you can get. Why? Because everything is SO transparent. The whole world knows what USA is upto, and when the time to criticize comes, its so easy to pick on the poor delegate who has USA, AKA, me. Everyone attacked me SO much, and thats the main reason why the debating was SO hectic. Also, the whole crisis session was about USA, and how USA was going to carpet bomb a nation. So, in the end, since I was in SO much crap, I ended up getting only an Honorary Mention. If I would've been more experienced and if I wouldve been able to defend myself as USA, I probably would've gotten Outstanding Diplomacy. Oh well, there's always a next time!

On a brighter note, we had four AMAZING social events. The conferences, however, were the usual. Intense, fierce, competitive, and fun. The social events were loads of fun.

The first was the Global Dhamaal, which was basically a global village, where people set up stalls according to their respective countries.



The UAE stall. *Sigh* Nostalgia struck me there.



Bhangra guys. We bhangra-ed like retards! And this was just the first night.

The second event was the formal dinner, Black Label. It was AWESOME. It was SUPPOSED to be a formal dinner, where people would sit down, and have dinner like normal people, and we did exactly that on the other hand, MADE it into another dance party by randomly dancing to the music. This is what I wore:



Imagine dancing in THAT. FUN, but difficult. Anyway, the third event was a Qawwali, which was fun too, but unfortunately, I dont have any pictures of it.


Finally, the last event was the disco party, Discomacy. It was CRAZY. Everyone was going nuts, dancing like there was no tomorrow. There were some break dancers too who performed, it was a lot of fun.

Sorry for the crappy picture quality, I took these in a hurry while dancing like a maniac with my dumb phone, to have atleast something from the event, since I did NOT want to risk getting my camera.

All in all, it was an awesome experience, and now I'm really looking forward to more MUNs that will be coming next month and this month!


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Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Do tell me how you spent your New Year's Eve, because all I did was get bored at home. I got invited to this awesome party at my friend's place, but unfortunately I wasn't allowed by my parents. *Sigh*. It was horrible. Hopefully your New Year's Eve wasn't totally boring and uneventful like mine.

And whats worse, is that SCHOOL re-opens tomorrow :'(... Just when I was beginning to get used to sleeping at 4 AM, and getting up at 2 everyday, it just HAD to happen. But hey, on a brighter note, Its my birthday in 14 days! And that means GIFTS. Ohyes. Ive been waiting for this for a long, LONG time. And im going to be eighteen years old! That means, hello adulthood? Wow. I remember my fifteenth and sixteenth birthdays like they were only a few days ago. And now, I'm almost an adult.

Time really does fly...

Well, I need to get going now, I have to go to a friend's birthday! Lets see how that goes. Anyway, goodbye people! Enjoy your days off while they last!

So. Much. Fun.

Hi. Yes yes, I know I haven't posted for ages. And I'm truly very sorry, but the thing is, I have really been busy since the 11th grade is reallyyy crappy. Anyway, I've been attending many events lately, especially the ZabMUN conference, 2011. The conference was quite hectic, but the social events were probably one of the best nights I've ever had. Crazy people, crazy experiences, crazy dancing, and crazy music. It was simply crazy, yeah I know, its 2 AM and I'm partially intoxicated with a multitude of things, that you probably dont want to know about.

I made new, amazing friends. People I really hope I would see again even after the end of the conference, because these people are those who you will never forget. I shall post in more detail about this conference, and the social events soon! For now, Ciao, and wish me luck for tomorrow!

Its Happening. Again.

Something is wrong with me. Or is it really right to say that its wrong? I dont know. Maybe something is happening, something thats finally right after so long. I dont know. I cant describe how I feel. I wish I could. This is why I blog. Or write. Or whatever. To express out how I feel, but in this case, its extremely difficult. I have no idea how to put into words, the feeling that I am currently experiencing. Its like... everything, EVERYTHING is more enjoyable. More fun. More exciting. I look forward to everything now, take interest in everything now, and im guessing its because of that one person. I dont know how she's doing this. I dont know how she's making this change in me... But.

I kind of like it.

Sleepless nights, loss of appetite, loss of concentration on anything besides her, yes many would say cliched, but EXTREMELY true.

Do I get butterflies when Im next to you? Yes. Do I feel like constantly jumping and letting out all the energy when you're next to me? Yes. Do I miss her if I havent spoken to her for over an hour? Yes.

I never really liked things that were extremely cliched. But unfortunately, most of the cliches are reality. Unavoidable.

Im getting impatient. Extremely impatient. Still haven't expressed myself completely to her. Just waiting. Waiting for the right moment. Im waiting for when she's ready. Or maybe for when I'm ready. But when the time's right, I know im going to do it. I know im going to look right into her eyes, and say it. Ive been waiting for the opportunity that has been a little hard to grasp lately. But when I do get it, I will tell her. I'll look at her square into the eyes and tell her.


I <3 You.

Was it a dream? No... It couldn't have been.

Yesterday was magical. Amazing. Awesome. The best. Like a dream come true. If you're reading this, I know you're probably not, but IF you are, you are the most amazing person I have ever known. Ever. I like you VERY VERY much and I really do hope that I see you again as soon as possible, because I miss you. I miss you already. Even though we just met yesterday, for many hours, though they seemed few, because time is hard to keep up with when I'm with you. I want to see your beautiful face again. I cant wait. Cant wait till I see you one more time.

Its hard to describe how I felt when I got home yesterday. That was ofcourse, when I got to my senses. During the experience, I was probably completely out of my mind. Because I couldn't think of anyone or anything except you. The movie we watched, I cant even remember its name or what happened. Who'd watch a silly movie when you're there, sitting right next to me? Im not usually like this. Im not always this emotional or affectionate. I dont know what you've done to me. Im losing my head. Losing my mind.

It most definitely, wasn't a dream. I know it wasn't.