Saturday, 9 April 2011


Ok, im going to say it flat out. Im shit scared for my O' levels. There said it. For some people, their exams could be in the form of A levels, SATS, TOEFL, IB or IGCSE's, but for me its the frikkin O' levels. Now dont be fooled by the abbreviation. The "O" stands for Ordinary. But these exams are EVERYTHING but ordinary. They create tension, stress and mental trauma for many. Sometimes, including me.
The only thing I worry about a lot is the fact that, the fee was so much, and if, GOD FORBID, but if I get poor grades, (Which for me is anything less than an A) i'll feel so guilty... I'll feel like I wasted the money. And especially after the problems my family had, (financial), im much more conscious of how I spend money. Yes, ofcourse education is worth it but these exams are really expensive, and the fact that my future depends on it makes it worse. I have to grow up to be someone who can take care of my family and my parents. I feel scared that what if? And people tell me to have faith and confidence in myself. Believe me, I do. But you cant possibly ignore the "What if's" of life.
And I KNOW I should be studying right now rather than blogging but its SO difficult sitting down and studing for an extended period of time. After some point, my brain stops functioning. Maybe I have ADD. I dont know. But whatever. I just hope everything goes well...


You know, there's always something in our lives that makes us relax, feel better and it makes us enjoy ourselves quite a lot. Well for me, its football and blogging. Life's not at its best these days, and the only thing that does cheer me up is football and blogging. Mostly football. Dont get me wrong though, I LOVE blogging, but football's just different. Its an amazing game. Also because im a sports-a-holic, I like many other sports. But football's my favourite.
Just recently, I joined ZU. Its a football club in Karachi. Loads of fun. Thing is, whenever I'm angry, pissed off or upset, I play football or blog. Blogging kinda lets me let out all the anger/sadness and transfer it to the PC in text form. Football just makes me feel better all around. So yeah. OH and almost forgot, Music does that too :P I just plug in my headphones, and when my favourite music is on, the world doesnt matter.